Sinking

I want to scream more often into this void Words about sinking Because it feels like tying anchors to ankles If I speak them to those in close proximity All I’ve ever done is drag people to the ocean floor with me Which is never fair Just because I haven’t learned to swim Doesn’t mean…

Richard

Richard Dick The voice in my head That wants me dead Has lost a lot of power Since I gave him Such a fitting name SWD 01/2021

Box of Letters

My heart holds A box of letters Not all pleasant But all important Some have been So tear soaked That I can no longer Read the words That helped usher in My self-doubt SWD 01/2021

Sinking Ships

We watch ships come and go from our docks everyday Waving them on past the horizon until they return Though some never make it back to our shores Leaving us to wonder what could have happened on their venture If they made it to the destiny for which they embarked Or met an unbeatable storm…

My Mind’s Captor

I go home each day And make the conscious choice to Not take my own life Some days it’s easy To shake those terrible thoughts But most days it’s not My mind’s captor is Cunning and cruel but I won’t Go down so easy SWD 10/2019

Antidepressants

I carry these pills Like the tin man’s oil can Constantly am I Reminded of my Rusty edges and hollow Disconsolate chest SWD 01/2018 Updated 06/2019

Silence

Silence used to scare me And the way it can fill a room But as my head sinks into the bath The water plugs my ears Surrounding sounds are suppressed And my malicious mind is muffled I realise silence is all I’ve wanted SWD 04/2019

Thoughts Come Knocking

Thoughts come knocking at my mind Good, bad and even suicidal That latter had been visiting more and more I tried my best not to open the door But they often broke into my home anyway Angry for not listening to what they wanted to say Tearing down everything to retaliate Leaving me wrecked and…