My Mind’s Captor

I go home each day And make the conscious choice to Not take my own life Some days it’s easy To shake those terrible thoughts But most days it’s not My mind’s captor is Cunning and cruel but I won’t Go down so easy SWD 10/2019 Advertisements

I came out today

I came out today Peeked my head from the closet Where I hung my doubts Like warm winter coats Worn when the world seemed cold, then I stepped out today Faced the frigid air Without any protection And slammed the door shut The sting of the wind Subsided and Spring sprung when I came out…

Damp

Your body pinned to The wall of the bath while I Kiss from lips to lips SWD 07/2019

Antidepressants

I carry these pills Like the tin man’s oil can Constantly am I Reminded of my Rusty edges and hollow Disconsolate chest SWD 01/2018 Updated 06/2019

Love Myself

I want to love me So much that I would not be Scared to die alone SWD 06/2019    

It’s All in Your Head

“It’s all in your head.” But of course it is, for that’s Where broken brains live SWD 05/2018 That is a stupid line I feed myself often, “it’s all in your head”. It is awful to belittle myself that way when I have the ability to be my best advocate in times of mania, depression,…

Our Last Bridge

I brought the matches You brought the fuel, both hoping This is our last bridge SW 06/2017

Holding Back Tears

My eyelids feel like Soaked sponges and, if I blink Too hard, they will leak SWD 05/2018

I am a doormat

I am a doormat One with rough edges to scrub The dirt from your soles SW 04/2018