My mind is a prison

My mind is a prison

The prisoners, my thoughts

But I am the warden

Holding keys to those locks

Never easily persuaded

To open up and let them out

Afraid of what they might do

‘Cause I am the only guard about

The only one that understands

The messes they can make

Most the time I think setting them free

Is too much a risk to take

Some bang on bars and reach for me

Upset when I scream “NO”

I keep a careful distance

For they may grab and not let go

There are a few sitting in silence

Waiting for their sentences to end

I know these thoughts are not like the others

Though they are also not my friends

They have caused pain and sorrow

Left me many times in tears

So I shoved them in with villains

And abandoned them for years

Now with every keystroke

I release those who waited their turn

They are painfully honest and deserve to be free

To be understood

To be heard

SWD 11/2015

I was getting over a tough breakup, I was nearing the end of my undergrad and the hard drive on my computer that held every piece I had written since before high school crashed causing me to lose everything. I was so discouraged to write and thought there was no point in picking back up. Until I met my partner. From the beginning, he was open and honest about his mental health and the feelings that go with it, not just with me but with his friends and family as well. It was encouraging to watch someone lay tough subjects on a table, open for discussion. He was astonished when I told him he had inspired this, inspired me to stop locking up the tough subjects just because I’m scared to face them. I will always be grateful to him for that.

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2 Comments Add yours

  1. Matt says:

    This is brilliant! So relatable.

    Liked by 1 person

  2. thereckoning12 says:

    Similar theme to a couple of my poems 😊

    Liked by 1 person

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