Fake it ‘til you make it

“Fake it ‘til you make it”

So I’ve been told

Though I’m not certain I will make it

Before I’m worn out and old

As if wearing a mask long enough

Will fuse it to my face

Or using smiles to dry my tears

Will change their bitter taste

It’s hard enough to fall asleep

Or wake up every morning

Fighting back the demons

That come knocking without warning

And I’m just suppose to pretend

They were never at my door

Good God, they’re fucking loud!

How the hell do I ignore

The screeching and the wailing

And their nails against the screen

So far faking it

Has never made them leave

How long do I hold them off

Before eventually I win

Or give up all together

And let the demons in

Maybe there was no war waging

In the head of whoever wrote that stupid line

Maybe they had a lot less to suppress

And an easier to control mind

Maybe I haven’t given it enough time

So for now I’ll just take it

Maybe I’ll perfect this facade

And eventually fake ‘til I make it

SWD 01/2018

2 Comments Add yours

  1. Tina says:

    I hate that saying as well. Fake it till you make what? “Come as you are” ….now that’s a better saying. Nobody is perfect. Don’t believe that you have to perfect a facade. That’s way too much pressure, and you won’t be happy behind the mask. If you need help just ask. (Didn’t mean for that last sentence to rhyme, but it works and it’s the truth.)

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  2. charlypriest says:

    Very well written. I did try that saying, but it didn´t work for me. Instead of faking it I had to work a lot on me ti´ll I made it ,whatever made means.

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